Who let out the tigers to kill all the lovers?

i need to get my life back on track. i wrote a scary entry about death and dying, after i read it a few hours later i scared myself. who or what am i turning into? i need to get another job and make money, i need to focus on school and keep shooting. i need to FOCUS. i need to keep my head up and not give up. i can do this. fuck everyone. fuck everyone!!!!!!! i'm better than all of that. im fucking better and i know who i am. i need to get new glasses to see. i need to get new clothes. i need to eat even more healthier. i can't keep starving myself. i can't keep feeling like this. i need to start smoking weed again, how could i ever think something so natural could've fucked my life up. it's better than taking stupid man-made chemical balanced PILLS. fake FAKE FAKE. this world is fucked up. we are all so very fucked up. MIND control and i need to fucking meditate.